When we got back from the park, I went to take a shower and let them to talk. Sally told everything to her about my plan. After my shower, I asked Lily if she could take me to my hotel, it was late. Read more…

After lunch, we started to get ready to go back to Shenzhen to meet with Sally for the weekend. I saw Lily and Mandy talking about something and they told me that, with Jeff helping them in translation, Jeff and Mandy will stay in Yangjiang for another 2-3 days, Lily and I will go to Shenzhen only, to meet with Sally. I was surprised, but it gave me the chance to talk to her about my plan. Read more…

The next morning I woke up in pain. My skin was burning on my back. I looked at it in the mirror and it was very red from the sun. I took a cold shower just to ease the pain. It had helped me only for a few minutes. When Lily woke up, I asked her if she could apply some lotion on it. I was standing before her, half naked ,with my back turned to her as she started applying the lotion onto my skin. It felt good, it really eased the pain. She was finished with my back, stepped in front of me and said, Read more…

We woke up late the next morning, It was already 10am when Jeff and I got up and we wanted to go to the beach. He went to the other room to wake her mother and Mandy up, came back and said, Mandy and her mother didn't want to go to the beach because it was too hot and they were afraid of burning their skins. They wanted to go in the evening time. Finally we agreed to go, but they were going to stay in the shades. Jeff was very happy because I promised him I was going to teach him how to swim properly. Read more…

Silence is the reason why I'm here. Time seems to go slower here. I love this feeling when I can hear my own heart beating and can be myself, no one's watching. I feel that I'm closer to something . . . something that I can't comprehend. This feeling that surrounds me every time I'm here is like when I was at my Mother's home and felt unconditional love. I am closer to home here than anywhere else and I'm accepted for who I am and part of a bigger picture. Read more…

Mandy, Jeff and Lily were waiting for me at the airport. I came only for eight days because I had to return to Vancouver for that big job my contractor talked about. The plan was to stay one night in Shenzhen and the next day to travel to Mandy's hometown for 3-4 days. After that, come back to Shenzhen to get ready for my return to Canada. Read more…

Lily got her American visa, but she didn't care, she was a mess. She had to break up with a man who gave her a little bit of hope after 9 years of being alone. It was like, she was starving for a long time and someone showed her the foods that she could have, but wasn't allowed to eat. She was hungry for love and male attention. She wanted to feel safe again with her son in a nice family. The opportunity for a better life was lost when the man told her a bad joke that triggered something in Lily. Read more…

I went back to my old lifestyle, that I had before I met Lily. I woke up at 4:30 in the morning, went to the gym, went to work, after work, cooking and in the evening time tried to do something that eased my pain. I missed her very much! First time in my life I found someone precious, who showed me the true meaning of love, but I lost her because of my stupidity and carelessness. Life went on and I had to force myself to go on as well. Six weeks went by, it was already July when I went on QQ one day and saw her online. I had not seen her there for six weeks, since we broke up. I didn't want to bother her. One hour later I checked it again and she was still there. I wanted to talk to her very much, after another 10 minutes, I greeted her. To my surprise she greeted me back. Read more…

I received the news, not about her American visa, but about somebody I trusted, had disappeared with $40000 that belonged to me. I am not a rich man, losing that kind of money at once made me sick. I felt that I was losing everything, my business, my life and my intended Chinese wife, my Lily. Read more…

I didn't feel that I wanted to come back to Vancouver. I love this city, but I left a part of me in China. I wasn't a whole person. Five days after I got home, Lily, Mandy, Jeff and Lily's ex-husband left for Australia. Read more…