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我出世在一个美丽的国家,经历了动荡的时代和历史的变迁,终于回到了祖国。当岁月积淀女人的智慧与理性,我终于剥下华丽与虚荣,学会积累生活和人生的体悟,我在这里与大家分享生活的心灵感悟,感悟人生的真谛。I was born in a beautiful country, Vietnam, and lived through the turbulent era and the history of changes, then finally returned to the Mother China. With years of accumulated wisdom and feminine rationality,I finally peeled off the gorgeous and vanity. I am here to share with you inspiration, love, hope and thankfulness and their role in understanding the depth and true meaning of life.
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The Spring of Mourning 春殇    

By Xin73
5216 Views | 13 Comments | 3/16/2013 6:32:34 PM

The Spring is the season of recovery in all things. Life started a new round of growth.The people always put anima and alive together,make the dead come back to life called "admirable skill".But these praises the Spring beautiful words,this season but let me feels indifferently, not yet step out of the breath of Spring, instead I smell Autumn desolation......
When I was to be aware of that the classmate's son died, my grief is not inferior to her. That's a lovely clever children. So young life just such disappeared.

I remember before approaching Spring Festival, my classmates told me that she was two years old son XiaoJie who developed acute leukemia, is now receiving treatment Province of medical college. Her son's body has always been weak, in accepting the bone biopsy when he was crying badly. How can such a small child can stand such a tossing ah, Adults also unbearable let alone a child! Because bone wear inspection can't be anesthesia.Classmate say her children in the operating room crying, she crying on the outside of the operating room. I heard her say so feel very heartache for them.

XiaoJie finished in last bone biopsy, doctors informed the families of children must chemotherapy immediately. Classmate called to tell me, she don't want the XiaoJie do chemotherapy, doing bone check XiaoJie has cannot afford to torture, he now saw doctors have very fear.Doctors say a series of risk and give my classmate said,at present the XiaoJie condition in the process of chemotherapy may occur at any time the danger of life. My classmate's meaning is to want to postpone , and the XiaoJie feet less pain then chemotherapy again.Because the feet of the XiaoJie for a bone wear test eight times, the pain to can't let him walk. Ah,is really a poor child.Classmate say no matter how, she put the children to take home to spend the Spring Festival again do it next step treatment,and request me help to her contact a better hospital.I help her contact a specialized treatment leukemia hospital in Shijiazhuang, plans after the Spring Festival to send the XiaoJie to there treatment.

I went to see my classmate and her son on the eve of the spring festival. XiaoJie more thin than before,his mother held him.Though he was tortured by the disease slightly tired face but could not hide his clever and lovely.I asked him: why did XiaoJie let mother holding don't to go play? "he said," aunt, XiaoJie wants to go to play don't want to mother holding, but my the leg very pain can't walk."Hear the child tender voice my tears to misty in my eyes.The nameless pain in my heart pervaded.... God, please have mercy on the poor child.

Finally see XiaoJie in lunar January 4. Clearly remember the day I gave him to send New Year red packets scene,he asked me: "Auntie, you need to give XiaoJie what kind wishes for the new year? " I did not expect that before only two-year-old child articulate so clever."Aunt give XiaoJie best wishes, hope that XiaoJie was a brave child and body better soon, aunt and your mother can take you to go to a lot of fun place."He after listen to happy to clap hands said: " aunt, XiaoJie behaved very brave, and XiaoJie to drink very bitter traditional chinese medicine need not added sugar oh."Looked at almost baby-like aspect of the lovely child, my heart tightened, from the bottom of my heart to god pray for XiaoJie, begged God bless him beat the disease can be recover soon.

Lunar January fourteen,my classmate call me to her house to discuss to take XiaoJie to Shijiazhuang treatment of matters concerned.I was very busy can't get out, until January 17 and I only time to go to her home. However, let me face the bad news was XiaoJie been dead.My classmate told me that XiaoJie is on the 16th at two o 'clock in the morning passed away, It all came so be caught unprepared .Listening to my classmates sobbed out,My tears are already mad flow.I fully understand that lose beloved son of a mother of keenly felt pain ,I also very feel remorse of two days ago did not come to her house to see XiaoJie one last time,I can't face a younger life of suddenly left this world..All this makes me deeply realized the fragility of life and life is not as good as grass,the grass still can " Wild Fire Yaki not spring the wind again."But human life died so quickly, only leave to the world a wisp of smoke and gave friends and relatives of grief and recollect. At the moment I besides grief still sorrow, regrets still regretful...

This season I cannot feel the vitality of Spring. Human life is so fragile,no one knows what will be the next moment,they can live the now in every moment, cherishing everyone around. Individual's life will always be the most insignificant, is always the most vulnerable.Life comes floating, gone too suddenly, nothing can be redeemed , only the heartache of a life disappeared from our helpless line of sight, we only helplessly watching and send forth the long or short sigh.I hope my classmate soon steps out of the shadow of lost beloved son,the grief after strong life,happy to be alive,let life bloom another a wonderful now!

Request the Spring breeze help me to send to a greeting: In paradise XiaoJie, you come into the world is for the round of fate between mother and son,and then hurried to another world to complete your task.In the beautiful heaven you will not suffer the pain torture, you must be happy, and you live forever in your parents and my heart!!!

春殇

春天,是万物复苏的季节。生命开始了新一轮的生长。人们总是把生命,生机联系在一起,把起死回生称之“妙手回春”。可是这些歌颂春天美好的词语,今季却让我漠然,没有走出春天的气息却让我嗅到秋的悲凉。。。。。。

当我获悉同学的儿子不幸身亡,我的悲伤绝不亚于她。那可是一个可爱的机灵的幼儿。如此稚嫩的生命就这样消失了。

记得临近春节前,我的同学告诉我她的两岁儿子小杰患了急性白血病,正在省医学院接受治疗。她的儿子身体一向虚弱,在接受做骨穿检查时哭闹得不行。这么小的孩子那经得起此般折腾啊,成年人也难以忍受何况是一个小孩!因为骨穿检查是不能麻醉的。同学说她的孩子在手术室里哭,她在手术室外哭。听此我心痛不已。

小杰在做完最后一次骨穿检查后,医生通知家属孩子必须马上进行化疗。同学给我打电话告诉我,她不想给小杰做化疗,在做骨穿检查小杰已经承受不起此般折磨,他看见医生已经害怕得不得了。医生给我同学说了一系列风险,以目前小杰的身体状况在化疗的过程中随时出现生命危险。同学和我说她的意思是想暂缓,等小杰的脚没那么痛再做化疗。因为小杰的左右脚共骨穿检查八次,痛得他走不了路。哎,真是可怜的孩子。同学说无论怎样,先把孩子带回家过完春节再做下一步治疗,并且托我为小杰找一家更好的医院。我帮她联系了石家庄一家专治白血病的医院,计划春节过后送小杰到那治疗。

除夕那天我去探望了我的同学和她的儿子。小杰比以前清瘦多了,一直要他妈妈抱着。虽然他被病魔折磨略显疲惫的小脸却掩饰不了他的机灵可爱。我问他:小杰为什么要妈妈抱着不下来玩呢.”他说:“阿姨,小杰很想去玩不想要妈妈抱,可是小杰的腿好痛不能走路。”听到孩子稚嫩的声音眼泪已经迷蒙我的双眼。无名之痛在我心里弥漫。。。。。。老天,请可怜可怜这个孩子吧。。。。。。

最后看见小杰是在正月初四。清晰地记得那天给他派新年红包的情景,他问我:“阿姨,你要给小杰什么祝福呀?”想不到才两岁的孩子口齿如此伶俐。“阿姨给小杰最美好的祝愿,希望小杰是一个勇敢的孩子并且身体早日好起来,阿姨和你妈妈就可以带小杰去很多好玩的地方。”他听后高兴地拍起小手说:“阿姨,小杰很乖很勇敢,小杰喝很苦的中药不用加糖哦。”看着满脸稚气可爱的孩子,我从心底向上帝为他祈祷,恳求上帝保佑他能战胜病魔早日康复。

正月十四日,同学给我来电叫我去她家,商量准备带小杰去石家庄治疗的事宜。当时我真的很忙无法抽身,一直到正月十七我才有时间去她家,然而让我面对的是小杰已经不在人世的噩耗。我的同学告诉我小杰是在正月十六凌晨两点不在的。没想到一切来得如此猝不及防。听着同学哭诉陈述,我的眼泪早已滂沱。我完全理解一个母亲丧失爱子的切肤之痛,也非常懊悔前两天我没有来她家能看上小杰最后一面。我无法面对一个稚嫩的生命就这样猝然离开了这个世界。这一切让我深切地体会到生命的脆弱,真的脆弱得比不上一颗小草,小草尚且可以“野火烧不尽,春风吹又生。”可人的生命的夭折如此地迅速,只留给这个世界一缕青烟和亲朋好友的悲痛和缅怀。此刻我除了悲痛,还是悲痛;遗憾,还是遗憾……

今季我无法体会到春的生机。让我感触更多的是春的凋零。人的生命竟是如此的脆弱,没有人知道下一刻会如何,唯一能做的就是过好现在的每一刻,珍惜身边的每一个人。个体的生命永远是最渺小的、永远是最脆弱的。生命来也飘,去也忽,当一切无可遮挽时,只好心痛地任凭一个生命消失在我们无奈的视线中,我们洒落的惟有或长或短的叹息。希望我的同学早日走出痛失爱子的阴影,悲痛过后坚强地活着,快乐地活着,让生命绽放另一种精彩!

拜托春风为我捎去一份问候:天堂里的小杰,你来到世间是为圆母子之缘,然后匆匆奔向另一个世界去完成你的任务。在美丽的天堂里你不会再被病痛折磨,你一定要过的幸福,你永远活在你的父母和阿姨的心中!

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#2013-03-16 19:34:18 by Apinkapple @Apinkapple

Xin,while I'm reading the story,my heart hurts.Life is so vulnerable.May Xiaojie be healthy and happy in heaven.Thank you for writing it down.

#2013-03-16 20:15:59 by ann122 @ann122

真的很感动!愿可爱的孩子一路走好!同时也谢谢作者写出这么真情实感的文章与我们分享。

#2013-03-17 10:34:06 by amylu @amylu

谢 谢!xin73 看到小孩在里哭妈妈在外哭时,又让我清洗了一下眼睛。这让我想起我儿子二岁时第一次生病,要在头上打吊针时,看着他哭得很厉害,我也哭得和他一样。我没办法按着他,自已就到外边去哭了。
祝:小杰走好,再次来到人间时健康.幸福。

#2013-03-17 10:53:51 by lhui @lhui

一声叹息……深深地叹息!
天堂里的孩子一定会幸福、快乐的!悲伤的父母也请尽快走出伤痛的阴霾:因为如果心灵有感应,天堂里的小杰一定会感知父母的悲哀!这应该是聪明可爱的他不愿意看到的!——知道对父母而言,一定很难很难,但还是得学会坚强。。。
生命的旅程虽不漫长,却总时时、处处充斥着各种意外和伤害。不幸遭遇的人,只有选择坚强,才能给逝者更大的安慰;而幸运的人,一定要学会虔诚感恩!

#2013-03-17 12:43:46 by JohnAbbot @JohnAbbot

@Xin73 - There can no be worse pain than to suffer the death of one's child. You have described that event so poignantly that I can't help but think about how the death of my own child, or of a grandchild would feel, and just thinking about it causes such intense pain that it is nearly unbearable. I truly cannot imagine the pain your friend must be feeling. Out hearts go out to her, and to you for having to also bear the pain of a child close to your heart having passed away.

#2013-03-17 14:13:51 by Grace172 @Grace172

作为母亲,我能理解孩子父母的痛,这种痛是会伴随他们一辈子的.当他们在街上看到同龄的孩子会更伤心。但逝者已去,生者还要坚强生活下去。 早逝的孩子也许是上帝最喜欢的天使,所以上帝把他们留在自己身边了。希望他们能尽快从痛苦中得到安慰。

#2013-03-18 00:26:34 by aku1234 @aku1234

What a touching and sad story. And your description is unbelievably eloquent and vibrant. Having 3 children myself it affects me deeply.

I lost a very close friend to cancer last year after long chemotherapy treatment and remember still vividly my discussions with her and her pain and fear of death and the unknown. It was heart breaking like your story.

I am sure little XiaoJie is in a better place now without pain and suffering. I wish him godspeed. Jesus said that the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to children and I believe that to be very true.

I have been listening to the traditional Chinese music you sent to me. It is very beautiful. Thank you Xin!

#2013-03-19 04:40:27 by plenaryman @plenaryman

@Xin73-This is a very emotional blog showing empathy with another’s suffering. Xiaojie was very brave indeed as he neared the end of his young life; it had been a life full on pain.

Having your friend’s young son’s life fade away whilst you busied yourself with business must be particularly heart wrenching. You did not know the end was near, so you should not feel guilty at not being at your friend’s side when the end came.

Thank you for sharing your feeling with us and I hope Xiaojie’s mother understands that she does not stand alone in her suffering.

God bless Xiaojie’s soul in heaven. I will give a quiet prayer for his tranquil after-life in church on Sunday.

#2013-03-19 12:08:35 by xin73 @xin73

@Apinkapple @ann122 @amylu @lhui @JohnAbbot @Grace172 @aku1234
感谢各位的评论并代我的同学感谢你们。我不知道该用怎样的言词安慰她的伤痛,沉思后我决定把这些记录在我的博客以此缅怀她的儿子。我希望我的同学能够明白,自古以来,生死离别是最令人痛彻心扉的。这些残酷与揪心的痛楚最终也随着灵魂的飘逝,灰飞烟灭!这是生命的定数,谁也无法改变。我们被选择来到这个世界,活着的我们,就应该用所有的真心和真情,用所有的欢笑和泪水来演绎这场绝美的生命之旅!让我们在未碎之前尽情地展现我们最美的风姿,用一种最佳的姿态,去面对生命赋予我们的所有悲欢离合。

Thank each and every comment and I replaced my classmates to thank each and every one of you.

I don't know should use what words to comfort her pain,after meditation, I decided to put these records in my blog to cherish the memory of her son.

I hope my classmate can understand, Since ancient times, life and death parting is the most let a person has to meet stinging pain. These cruel and heartrending pain also eventually as the drift of the soul and ashes to ashes. This is the destiny of life, no one can change. We selected came to this world, we alive, we should use all the sincerity and true feelings, with all the laughter and tears to deduce the beautiful journey of life! Let us show our most beautiful charm in the rest of one's remaining years, with a best attitude, to face the life gives us all the olden days.





#2013-03-21 00:09:11 by sara1202 @sara1202

生命就像一片纸,一撕便碎;犹如秋天的叶子,风吹即落。稚嫩的小苗,只为破土感受人间母亲的情怀;短暂相聚,融入天地母亲的怀抱。想必,他应是天地间的精灵,才会如此匆匆掠过。

当看到穿梭于自然间快乐的精灵时,必定有一个是他,在祝福着自己的父母。

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