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The Spring of Mourning 春殇    

By Xin73
5216 Views | 13 Comments | 3/16/2013 6:32:34 PM

The Spring is the season of recovery in all things. Life started a new round of growth.The people always put anima and alive together,make the dead come back to life called "admirable skill".But these praises the Spring beautiful words,this season but let me feels indifferently, not yet step out of the breath of Spring, instead I smell Autumn desolation......
When I was to be aware of that the classmate's son died, my grief is not inferior to her. That's a lovely clever children. So young life just such disappeared.

I remember before approaching Spring Festival, my classmates told me that she was two years old son XiaoJie who developed acute leukemia, is now receiving treatment Province of medical college. Her son's body has always been weak, in accepting the bone biopsy when he was crying badly. How can such a small child can stand such a tossing ah, Adults also unbearable let alone a child! Because bone wear inspection can't be anesthesia.Classmate say her children in the operating room crying, she crying on the outside of the operating room. I heard her say so feel very heartache for them.

XiaoJie finished in last bone biopsy, doctors informed the families of children must chemotherapy immediately. Classmate called to tell me, she don't want the XiaoJie do chemotherapy, doing bone check XiaoJie has cannot afford to torture, he now saw doctors have very fear.Doctors say a series of risk and give my classmate said,at present the XiaoJie condition in the process of chemotherapy may occur at any time the danger of life. My classmate's meaning is to want to postpone , and the XiaoJie feet less pain then chemotherapy again.Because the feet of the XiaoJie for a bone wear test eight times, the pain to can't let him walk. Ah,is really a poor child.Classmate say no matter how, she put the children to take home to spend the Spring Festival again do it next step treatment,and request me help to her contact a better hospital.I help her contact a specialized treatment leukemia hospital in Shijiazhuang, plans after the Spring Festival to send the XiaoJie to there treatment.

I went to see my classmate and her son on the eve of the spring festival. XiaoJie more thin than before,his mother held him.Though he was tortured by the disease slightly tired face but could not hide his clever and lovely.I asked him: why did XiaoJie let mother holding don't to go play? "he said," aunt, XiaoJie wants to go to play don't want to mother holding, but my the leg very pain can't walk."Hear the child tender voice my tears to misty in my eyes.The nameless pain in my heart pervaded.... God, please have mercy on the poor child.

Finally see XiaoJie in lunar January 4. Clearly remember the day I gave him to send New Year red packets scene,he asked me: "Auntie, you need to give XiaoJie what kind wishes for the new year? " I did not expect that before only two-year-old child articulate so clever."Aunt give XiaoJie best wishes, hope that XiaoJie was a brave child and body better soon, aunt and your mother can take you to go to a lot of fun place."He after listen to happy to clap hands said: " aunt, XiaoJie behaved very brave, and XiaoJie to drink very bitter traditional chinese medicine need not added sugar oh."Looked at almost baby-like aspect of the lovely child, my heart tightened, from the bottom of my heart to god pray for XiaoJie, begged God bless him beat the disease can be recover soon.

Lunar January fourteen,my classmate call me to her house to discuss to take XiaoJie to Shijiazhuang treatment of matters concerned.I was very busy can't get out, until January 17 and I only time to go to her home. However, let me face the bad news was XiaoJie been dead.My classmate told me that XiaoJie is on the 16th at two o 'clock in the morning passed away, It all came so be caught unprepared .Listening to my classmates sobbed out,My tears are already mad flow.I fully understand that lose beloved son of a mother of keenly felt pain ,I also very feel remorse of two days ago did not come to her house to see XiaoJie one last time,I can't face a younger life of suddenly left this world..All this makes me deeply realized the fragility of life and life is not as good as grass,the grass still can " Wild Fire Yaki not spring the wind again."But human life died so quickly, only leave to the world a wisp of smoke and gave friends and relatives of grief and recollect. At the moment I besides grief still sorrow, regrets still regretful...

This season I cannot feel the vitality of Spring. Human life is so fragile,no one knows what will be the next moment,they can live the now in every moment, cherishing everyone around. Individual's life will always be the most insignificant, is always the most vulnerable.Life comes floating, gone too suddenly, nothing can be redeemed , only the heartache of a life disappeared from our helpless line of sight, we only helplessly watching and send forth the long or short sigh.I hope my classmate soon steps out of the shadow of lost beloved son,the grief after strong life,happy to be alive,let life bloom another a wonderful now!

Request the Spring breeze help me to send to a greeting: In paradise XiaoJie, you come into the world is for the round of fate between mother and son,and then hurried to another world to complete your task.In the beautiful heaven you will not suffer the pain torture, you must be happy, and you live forever in your parents and my heart!!!











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#2013-03-16 19:34:18 by Apinkapple @Apinkapple

Xin,while I'm reading the story,my heart hurts.Life is so vulnerable.May Xiaojie be healthy and happy in heaven.Thank you for writing it down.

#2013-03-16 20:15:59 by ann122 @ann122


#2013-03-17 10:34:06 by amylu @amylu

谢 谢!xin73 看到小孩在里哭妈妈在外哭时,又让我清洗了一下眼睛。这让我想起我儿子二岁时第一次生病,要在头上打吊针时,看着他哭得很厉害,我也哭得和他一样。我没办法按着他,自已就到外边去哭了。

#2013-03-17 10:53:51 by lhui @lhui


#2013-03-17 12:43:46 by JohnAbbot @JohnAbbot

@Xin73 - There can no be worse pain than to suffer the death of one's child. You have described that event so poignantly that I can't help but think about how the death of my own child, or of a grandchild would feel, and just thinking about it causes such intense pain that it is nearly unbearable. I truly cannot imagine the pain your friend must be feeling. Out hearts go out to her, and to you for having to also bear the pain of a child close to your heart having passed away.

#2013-03-17 14:13:51 by Grace172 @Grace172

作为母亲,我能理解孩子父母的痛,这种痛是会伴随他们一辈子的.当他们在街上看到同龄的孩子会更伤心。但逝者已去,生者还要坚强生活下去。 早逝的孩子也许是上帝最喜欢的天使,所以上帝把他们留在自己身边了。希望他们能尽快从痛苦中得到安慰。

#2013-03-18 00:26:34 by aku1234 @aku1234

What a touching and sad story. And your description is unbelievably eloquent and vibrant. Having 3 children myself it affects me deeply.

I lost a very close friend to cancer last year after long chemotherapy treatment and remember still vividly my discussions with her and her pain and fear of death and the unknown. It was heart breaking like your story.

I am sure little XiaoJie is in a better place now without pain and suffering. I wish him godspeed. Jesus said that the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to children and I believe that to be very true.

I have been listening to the traditional Chinese music you sent to me. It is very beautiful. Thank you Xin!

#2013-03-19 04:40:27 by plenaryman @plenaryman

@Xin73-This is a very emotional blog showing empathy with another’s suffering. Xiaojie was very brave indeed as he neared the end of his young life; it had been a life full on pain.

Having your friend’s young son’s life fade away whilst you busied yourself with business must be particularly heart wrenching. You did not know the end was near, so you should not feel guilty at not being at your friend’s side when the end came.

Thank you for sharing your feeling with us and I hope Xiaojie’s mother understands that she does not stand alone in her suffering.

God bless Xiaojie’s soul in heaven. I will give a quiet prayer for his tranquil after-life in church on Sunday.

#2013-03-19 12:08:35 by xin73 @xin73

@Apinkapple @ann122 @amylu @lhui @JohnAbbot @Grace172 @aku1234

Thank each and every comment and I replaced my classmates to thank each and every one of you.

I don't know should use what words to comfort her pain,after meditation, I decided to put these records in my blog to cherish the memory of her son.

I hope my classmate can understand, Since ancient times, life and death parting is the most let a person has to meet stinging pain. These cruel and heartrending pain also eventually as the drift of the soul and ashes to ashes. This is the destiny of life, no one can change. We selected came to this world, we alive, we should use all the sincerity and true feelings, with all the laughter and tears to deduce the beautiful journey of life! Let us show our most beautiful charm in the rest of one's remaining years, with a best attitude, to face the life gives us all the olden days.

#2013-03-21 00:09:11 by sara1202 @sara1202



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