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Imi was born and raised in Europe, Hungary. After finishing his school years, he moved to Canada to search for a better life. He lived in Toronto for 13 years and currently resides in Vancouver. He is a romantic at heart with a strong desire to always do the right thing. He would like to give hope to the Chinese and Asian ladies with his story and send a message that love eventually finds everybody.
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My Love for Lily 我对百合的爱, Conclusion - Square One 结语 - 心殇    

By Imi
15416 Views | 72 Comments | 9/12/2014 4:47:43 PM

It's over. A Chinese love gone wrong.

I am emptied from all human emotions, there's nothing left inside me only the rubble of my collapsed hopes and dreams. I try to numb this dismal feeling with a cold shower in a desperate attempt to wash off my own disdain. I can see, I can hear, I can feel as the cold water hits my skin; all of my senses work perfectly, and yet, I'm still in the dark trying to find my own shadow.



I am back at square one which I prefer to call 'square nothing'. There are no hopes, no dreams, no feelings there, only a stream of disappointments try to pull me under forever.

I'm getting to realize that being alone is what life imposed on me. It seems, I don't really fit in anywhere. I was born in Hungary, but I live in Canada. I got an accent  when I speak in English and even my mother tells me that after so many years being away from home I got an accent when I speak in my mother tongue as well that I don't really detect when I talk to her.



I love my country, but I know I couldn't live there. Canada is the country that gave me every opportunity to set my life in motion and because of that I felt myself being welcomed. However, my mind is never going to think the same way like a true-born Canadian's mind does. My brain function is a mixture of Canadian and European thoughts and it mirrors through my conversations with others.   



I've got the same problems in the 'love business' too. Somewhere in time I've lost my interest in western women and started to be attracted to Chinese and Asian women, but it seems I approach the fundamental meaning of love from a different angle than Chinese women do.



After Lily and I broke up, I'd talked with many Chinese women and realized how different they were from each other. I was under the impression that Chinese traditional upbringing meant no sex until marriage; as I was told by Lily's friend Sally who was by the way a virgin at age 24 and still wanted to wait another 4-5 years before she would allow herself to be consumed with desire for the other gender.



So to my surprise the first Chinese woman I started to talk to, after Lily and Sally blinded my eyes with their puritanical beliefs in sex and marriage, was a piano teacher from Beijing who happened to be totally the opposite in temperament of Lily and Sally. Mostly we talked about music and showed to each other's original songs on Skype with audio on, but after we'd talked for a few days like this, suddenly she asked me if I had a photo of myself where she could see my hairy chest because she'd never seen a white man's hairy chest before. My jaw dropped in surprise.

I built up an image about traditional Chinese women in my head and her request completely demolished this picture in a blink of an eye.

I was curious about where she wanted to go with this and complied with her request. I sent her the same photo what you can see in part 13 of the 'My Love for Lily' series that I had taken when I turned 43.

I don't want to get into details, the only thing I want to and probably I am allowed to say is that I heard some sweet, barely audible moaning from the other side of the line and I had to admit to myself that even sounded better to my ears than her singing voice. Having said that, I was shocked and needed to ask myself, “Is this the same China where I met with Lily who barely let me touch her hand and kiss her?”

This incident with the piano teacher who played her “instrument” to amuse me after just a few days of knowing each other had really opened my eyes. If I was able to find two women from the same country who were completely the opposites in temperament, I might be able to find both temperaments in one woman who would represent her femininity in a graceful way at daytime, but would become a black-haired feline at night time only for me.

Leaving my conservative looking but hot blooded piano teacher behind in Beijing with my half naked photo in her computer, I continued my campaign in China to find the perfect Chinese woman for myself. After a few weeks of search I had found myself with one click of the mouse in Nanning, where I started to talk to a business woman who was a co-owner of two hotels.

To make a long story short we liked each other, but I told her I wasn't a rich man, actually, I was just a simple working man. She told me she really didn't care about how much money I had, she knew I was a good man and that was the only thing she cared about. She would make good many with her business for both of us and I didn't even have to work, I just needed to move to China and be with her.

I thanked her for telling me that I was a good man, but she forgot one thing. She forgot that I was an idiot as well who was about to decline this golden opportunity to have a carefree life. I am a man and I feel myself being a  real man when I can provide for my family. Doing nothing all day long would have led to problems between us in the future and eventually, we would have been separated. So it's not just men but even women with money think that they can buy everything, even love.

It seems the quantity of people we are able to contact with due to smarter and smaller electronic devices in our everyday lives don't necessary bring quality of people into our lives. Too many choices mean no choice at all. Finding love became incredibly hard  which brings me to my recent try to fall in love with a Chinese woman.

I've met her here on CLM a few months back this year. She liked the 'My Love for Lily' series and wanted me to give her a chance to get to know me. My only concern was that she was almost 12 years of my junior and that seemed to me a big age difference. Having said that we started off fairly well and after two months we were at a good place in our relationship. However, after two months it seemed she was having difficulties to find the time to chat with me. We reached the point where we  had talked only half an hour per/week. Our relationship started to cool off and eventually, we went separate ways. She was a nice woman and I know she will be happy with the right person, but it just wasn't me. I need a little bit of more time other than 30 minutes per/week to spend with my woman and build a relationship. She is an intelligent and sexy woman so any guy would be happy to have her.

So all of this happened with me after Lily's told me that she had a boyfriend, which I didn't really believe at that time and thought she lied about having a boyfriend. Interestingly, there was a comment from a lady who came to the same conclusion.

Anyway, I'd like to tell you what happened with Lily after we broke up.

After the break up I deleted her from my QQ list and was trying to move on with my life. But she contacted me on my phone and asked why I deleted her from my QQ list. “Do you hate me?”

“No, I don't hate you, but you've found the man you wanted to be with and I am also trying to move on with my life.” I replied.

“Actually, it doesn't really matter because I've just contacted you again to warn you about Mandy. She became a bad woman and stole 500.000 yuan from my ex-husband and if she ever wants to contact with you in anyway, you need to be careful with her. I am not friend with her any longer and she disappeared from our lives, no one can find her.”

 “Thank you for your concern, but there is no way she would be able to contact me since I've deleted her from my QQ list as well. Thanks for warning me anyway! Lily, I need to tell you something though that I didn't really want to tell you... I wrote a story about us.”

“What do you mean you wrote a story about us?”

“I wrote a story about our relationship and it looks it will be published.”

“Really? Can I read it?”

I sent the entire story to her the next day, but before we said good bye to each other she also told me that she lived in Los Angeles now and went to English school diligently, and after that she was planning to get the realtor licence. I was happy for her, she finally had found the family life that she had always wanted for Jeff and herself.

After a few days when she'd finished reading the story she contacted me one more time and gave me her own evaluation of the story.

She told me that she didn't like it, she actually loved it. She really loved the Chinese translation. I will never be able to read the Chinese translation, but I have to say Zoe must have done magic with a simple love story.

Lily had only one complain about the story. She didn't like my misunderstanding about her feelings toward me. She told me that I was the only man she had a real connection with, and she was not afraid to admit that she still wasn't able to meet with a better man. Breaking up with me was the hardest thing that she had to do in her life, but she had no choice, she had to do it.

Somehow I felt that it was nothing more than a pity talk on her part because when I asked her why she had no choice, she didn't give me any answer. She also asked me if we could still be  friends, but I refused it.

She has a family now, and I don't understand what she wants from me as a friend. She couldn't fight for me when there was an opportunity to have me in her life so I asked her not to contact with me in the future.

Jeff had still called me sometimes on QQ even after I stopped talking to his mother. He was a good guy, I liked him, but gradually we started to talk less and less, and one day I deleted him as well from my QQ list.

I am single again. I'm spending too much time on my own, and sometimes it seems I lost my direction. Is this how I want to spend my days hide at my place and walk the streets with a borrowed smile on my face? No, I don't want that because every desire, every dawn collapses back into itself if I can't let my fears fade away in the dark. I believe there is still a future out there waiting for me that represents itself in a pair of beautiful, dark eyes that will give me the hope for a new beginning and free me from my loneliness.  

                                           ___________.....__________



 



I would like to have the opportunity to thank all CLM members who followed my story, and also a big THANKS particularly to the members who had taken their times and commented on it!



JOHN- Thank you for letting my story being published on your site! It was a long 9 months labour. I believe I gained many things from this experience as a person and a beginner writer.

Thank you again for the opportunity!



我的情感已被掏空,希望和梦想碎了一地,那个被称为心的地方只有碎片掉落时划过的或深或浅的伤痕。希望冰冷的水能麻木我的伤痛,冲刷感情的失败与失落,站在浴头下,我能看见,能听到,也能感觉到水从我的头上哗哗流下,我的每个感官都在正常运转,可是,眼前分明是一片漆黑,看不到自己的影子。

我又回到了起点,对我来说更是经历一场心劫后一片残留的废墟,这里已经没有希望,没有梦想,没有悸动,只有剪之不断的绝望在丝丝缕缕地向我缠绕,

也许我该承认我将终生孤独。我这世界不属于任何地方,我在匈牙利出生,但定居在加拿大。在这里讲话我的英语不够纯正,回到家乡刚开口母亲说我的母语也变了味。

我深爱我的国家,但加拿大带给我人生的诸多机遇,让我在这片土地上留下脚印。但直到今天我的思维都无法与地道的加拿大人重合,我的大脑是个加拿大式与欧式思维的混合体,这种混合不断地冲击着我日常中与人的交流。

在爱情这个行当里我遭遇到同样的混乱。从某月某日起我对西方女人不再有兴趣,从某月某日起我被中国和亚洲女人逐渐吸引,但我对爱情的理解又好像没有找到中国女人要求的角度。

跟Lily分手后,我接触了许多别的中国女人,意识到她们每个人跟彼此都完全不一样。我一直坚信中国女人信奉婚前不能有性生活,就如Lily的朋友Sally,24岁还是处女,并且不允许自己在四五年内有情欲的需求。

在被Lily和Sally灌输了禁欲的思想并成为我脑中的一个模板后,我接触的第一个中国女人是位北京的钢琴老师。她让我认识到中国女人还有另一种完全不同的类型。一开始我们只聊音乐,并且用视频分享彼此喜欢的歌曲。几天后她突然问我有没有裸露上身的照片,她想看看西方男人有着浓密毛发的胸肌。我吃惊的差点要把下巴掉地上。

一刻间,她把我脑海中对中国女人传统形象的认识彻底刷新。我很好奇她的意图,就把我在43岁时拍的一张照片发给了他,就是我附在“我对Lily的爱”第13部分后的那张。

细节不便展开,只能告诉大家的是,在网络的这一端我听到了细弱娇甜的微微呻吟,当然我得承认这比她唱歌的声音好听多了。我吃惊地问自己,“这是跟那个连手都不准我碰更不跟我接吻的Lily一样来自中国吗?”

在我们接触几天后这位钢琴老师就用她的乐器来愉悦于我,这支插曲倒是让我眼界大开。我想,如果在同一个国家我能碰到性情截然不同的两种女人,那么也许会有一个女人在白天只展示她女性的优雅,而在夜晚会为我一个人显露她小猫一样的妖娆性感。

离开了我那位外表保守内心狂野的钢琴老师,并留下一张我半裸的照片在她的电脑里,我继续着在中国寻找自己的完美女人的战役。几周后我点开了一位在南宁的女士的资料,开始与这位成功女商人聊天,她是两个宾馆的合伙人。

长话短说,我们互相喜欢了,我告诉她我不是个富有的人,只是能辛苦工作来保证自己简单的生活。她说她不在乎我有没有钱,她知道我是个好男人,这就足够。她生意上赚的钱足够我们两个人花,她甚至不需要我工作,只要我愿意搬到中国跟她一起生活。

我感谢她说我是个好男人,但她不知道,我还是个挺傻的男人,我会拒绝她这个金矿以及她提供给我的不劳而获 的生活。我是个男人,而只有我在用自己的双手来为我的家庭带来物质保证的时候我才觉得自己是个男人。每天无所事事只会为两个人的感情带来无名的矛盾和麻烦,必然导致两个人分手。由此看来,希望用钱来买到一切甚至爱情的不光有男人,还有女人。

小巧而智能的电子机械使我们接触更多的人成为可能,但数量的增多并不一定使质量成为必然。太多选择相当于没有选择。找到真爱太难太难,我最近的一次尝试爱上一个中国女人也无果而终。

我在伊甸园认识她。她说她喜欢我的文章,希望我给她一个了解我的机会。我当时唯一的担心是她小我12岁,这对我来说是个很大的年龄差距。但我们开始了很轻松的交流,两个月后我们在这段网络恋情里彼此感觉很舒服。但是又两个月后,她好像很难有时间跟我聊天,渐渐地聊天的时间缩短到每周半个小时。这段恋情就这样冷淡下来,最后各自转身走向不同的方向。她是个很优秀的女人,我确信她会碰到那个让她开心幸福的人,但那个人不是我。每周三十分钟对我来说不足以来建立和维持一段感情。她是个聪明性感的女人,那个将来能跟她在一起的男人无疑会是个幸运的人。

以上所有都发生在Lily告诉我她有了新的男友之后。我当时不相信她的话,认为她在撒谎,有意思的是一位读了我文章的女士也认为Lily在撒谎。

好吧,现在我来说说,我们分手后Lily的情况。

分手后,我在QQ里把Lily删掉了,希望自己忘掉她开始新的生活。但之后她用电话发信息问我为什么删掉她的QQ,“你恨我,是吗?”

“不,我不恨你。只是你现在找到了自己的男人,我也要寻找自己的新生活。”我回答道。

“没关系,其实我今天联系你是想警告你要当心Mandy。她现在已经不是我的朋友了,她骗走了我前夫五十万人民币然后失踪了,没有人能找到她。”

 “谢谢你的关心,她即使想联系我都找不到途径,因为我也把她从QQ里删掉了,不过还是谢谢你的警告。还有一件事我要告诉你,我把我们的那段恋情写成了一篇文章.”

“什么意思,怎么叫写了篇文章?”

“我把那段恋情写了下来,而且可能会发表出书。”

“真的吗?那我可以读一读吗?”

第二天我把整个故事都发给了她。她还告诉我,她现在住在洛杉矶,每天勤奋地到英语学校学习学语言,随后她打算做房地产工作。我为她高兴,她终于为自己和儿子Jeff找到了一直想要的生活。

几天后,她说她读完了文章,并告诉我她的感受。她说她不喜欢,而是太喜欢了。她真的很喜欢汉语的翻译版。我将永远不可能读懂这篇文章的汉语翻译,但我确信Zoe为这个简单的爱情故事创造了奇迹。Lily说她只有一点不满意,说我误解了她当时对我的感觉,说我是唯一那个让她心动的男人,还说她到现在也没有遇到一个比我更好的男人,跟我分手是她这一生做出的最艰难的决定,但她没有选择,只能那么做。

这次聊天让我感觉我对她有所轻视,我问她为什么没有选择,她没有回答。只是问我,我们以后能否继续做朋友。我说不能。

她现在有了自己的家庭,我不懂她为什么需要我做她的朋友。当她有机会让我成为她生命中的一部分时,她却没有为我为自己争取。所以我告诉她不要再联系我了。

即使是跟Lily不再联系后,Jeff不时还会在QQ上跟我聊天,他是个好孩子,我很喜欢他,但渐渐地我们的联系也越来越少,直到有一天,我把他的名字也从QQ里删除了。

我又恢复了单身,我大部分时间都是形单影只,有时觉得自己没有了方向。当我躲在自己的房间里,或带着借来的微信走在大街上,我问自己这是我想要的吗,是我想要继续的生活吗?不,这不是,在每一个破云而出的黎明到来时,内心的黑暗与对孤独的恐惧都不愿随黑夜褪去。我仍然愿意相信我的未来就在前方,她伴随着一双黝黑美丽的眼睛给我带来生活的希望,向在孤独中的我伸出她的手。

                                           ___________.....__________





谨此感谢伊甸园所有追随我的故事的成员,更深深感谢付出时间给我评论的成员!

John, 更感谢您在伊甸园网站发表我的故事,这九个月的经历让我个人成长,也给我带来初试写作的非凡经历!

再次感谢伊甸园所搭建的的平台和提供的机遇


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#2014-09-12 16:54:30 by purplesea1970 @purplesea1970

keep moving,Imi

#2014-09-12 17:02:18 by JohnAbbot @JohnAbbot

First Imi, you hardly have to thank CLM for publishing your series. You provided a really emotional but pleasurable roller coaster ride for our members, and it is we who must thank you.

I am sure I speak for everyone that we hope you'll keep blogging now!. And I know I can say on behalf of the Chinese ladies that they all hope you will keep searching for your match among them. Your lifemate is here Imi, you just have to be patient and you will find her.

Thanks for bringing us all along on your quest for true love. We're so sorry you didn't achieve success with Lily, but we know you will succeed with some fortunate Chinese woman and we hope to get to read about that journey as well.

#2014-09-12 18:38:04 by JulyChen @JulyChen

看了Lim爱情故事结尾的这章,我的心情很无奈。我们中国的女人怎么了?无论是才华横溢的钢琴教师,还是两个宾馆的女老板,还是小他12岁的那个女人,给我的感觉,就是好像嫁不出去了,差不多要急着把自己卖出去了。其实,在我看了,从现实的角度来看,Lim只是个加拿大籍的匈牙利人,从他博客里看,他在加拿大并没有工作,说白了,在加拿大是打零工的,我看过他的资料,他的教育背景以及收入情况,居住情况,都没有填写。其实,他只是外表长得还可以外,其他外在的条件都是一般般,可我们的中国女人,都急着要嫁给他,一个是钢琴教师的行为,都让Lim的下巴要掉下来了,一个是宾馆的女老板,只要他来中国,她可以养他,一个是小他12岁的女人,请求他给个机会,是什么因素让他如此的抢手,我不知道为什么?其实,Lim这样的男人,中国也很多啊!
其实,在中国,我们有个词来形容我们这批女人,就是叫剩女,我自己也是快奔四的女人了,我的具体情况,在这,我就不详细的描述了,有时候,我理智地想一想,其实,所谓的剩女中,我们70后的女性是很多的,而且大多数是奔四的女人了,70年出生的是40岁,79年出生的是35岁。我们是努力寻找,还是孤独终老,我们的命运会怎样?现在还看不出来,但我隐约地有点担忧,三个优秀的女人,都有主动送上们,人家还有嫌弃的味道,还在我们中国女人中,挑三拣四的。我有个朋友,想把Lim介绍给我,我当时就说算了,不用了,为什么我这样说,因为,我的直觉已经告诉我,我们不可能,所以,我对我朋友说,不用了,谢谢!究竟为什么,其实,就是我感觉到,我们中国女人,已经给了他优越感,使他能在众多优秀的女人中挑三拣四,我就不要再去凑热闹了,到今天看完这故事,我的想法是对的,如果,我去与他谈,也会是这三个女人一样的结果。
我们这些女人,在与来自发达国家的男人谈恋爱时,怎样能做到不卑不亢,怎样能虏获到自己的异国爱人,真的要好些想一想,文化的差异,语言的差异,让我们的表达交流,有时产生误解,我看到CLM上的有些中国女人,展示的形象照,有些露了很多的丰满的胸部在外面,是不是他们老外真的在意胸的大小,而忽视女人的内在,或者我们女人的个性,是不是,我们所了解到的西方发达国家的男人,对乳房很着迷!是不是,我们露了乳房的大部分,老外真的很喜欢胸大的女人,女人的内在,个性都是次要的呢?是不是我们露乳房的时候,老外也要像Lim一样掉下巴呢?暗自窃笑呢?我们不要找各种理由来说只要相爱,其他都无所谓,爱情是没有条件的!其实,这大错特错,爱情是有条件的,如果没有条件,我们早嫁出去了,因为中国的剩男比剩女要多,我们对来自西方发达国家的,都非常的喜欢着迷,要是对方经济条件好,还长得帅的话,在中国简直抢手,他们一样也在乎我们女人的年龄,条件好的老外,他对女方的年龄也放得比自己小很多。我在CLM上,看到一些条件好的老外,如果他自己55岁,他也会要求女方在22岁至38岁,还有自己49岁,要求女方22岁至38岁的,还有些六十多岁的老头都与我联系过,所以,我们认为外国男人不像中国男人一样在乎年龄是错误的,真正不在乎女方年龄的是条件不好的老外。天下男人一个样,只是他们西方发达国家的男人福利待遇好,我们就喜欢他们,相反的,像来自非洲,亚洲的一些其他国家的男人,也很难虏获我们中国女人的芳心,可以说,根本不可能找到我们中国女人。我说这些,只是想说,爱情在哪个国家都是有条件的,没有条件的爱情,也许只有我们的初恋。尽管我们已经放眼全球找爱人,我感觉到,我们还是不容易!

#2014-09-12 18:40:12 by paulfox1 @paulfox1

Imi, you and I have different styles of writing here and our paths have crossed a few times but in the main, I have enjoyed the journey you have shared with us
I share Johns opinions and would love to see more blogs from you as your quest continues for the elusive Ms Right
Good Luck Mate

#2014-09-12 19:03:09 by Barry1 @Barry1

@imi5922

Let me say that of all your blog articles, I feel this was the one that has been the best written. The use of metaphors, similes and other writing techniques to both convey your story and colourfully enhance its meaning to readers was impressive.

Just take your first paragraph, for example:

"I am emptied from all human emotions, there's nothing left inside me only the rubble of my collapsed hopes and dreams. I try to numb this dismal feeling with a cold shower in a desperate attempt to wash off my own disdain. I can see, I can hear, I can feel as the cold water hits my skin; all of my senses work perfectly, and yet, I'm still in the dark trying to find my own shadow."

I think if I had really tried, I'd be hard pressed to come up with a description anywhere near as good of how you feel than this. I admire fine writing and this paragraph is is a wonderful example of this. I hope that I can emulate it sometime. Well done, Imi.

But back to your story at hand. A few passing comments I have are as follows.

"I'm getting to realize that being alone is what life imposed on me."

In reality Imi, this is the life you have imposed upon yourself. I'm definitely not saying this is a bad thing, just that it was a personal choice, one that was necessary for this time in your spiritual evolution.

"I heard some sweet, barely audible moaning from the other side of the line and I had to admit to myself that even sounded better to my ears than her singing voice"

I agree that a lady that did this after knowing you just for a few days was probably a person not worth pursuing for someone like you. A nice bit of humour here though.

"Doing nothing all day long would have led to problems between us in the future "

Yes, I wholeheartedly agree here. Living with a well off Chinese lady would have been fine for the short term, but after a few months, boredom and monotony would set in. A healthy, vital person really needs to be doing something positive with his or her life.

"after two months it seemed she was having difficulties to find the time to chat with me."

This is a sure sign that something is amiss. Something's wrong. You were right to move on from this lady, who as you say, will provide a great partner for someone other than you.

"she also told me that she lived in Los Angeles now and went to English school diligently, and after that she was planning to get the realtor licence."

I lived in the USA for two years and also at one stage contemplated getting a realtor job. I was advised off it though, saying that one needed years of experience in an area to really get to know it. I could tell you more, but suffice to say that the odds of an immigrant like Lily who's still learning English, to become a successful realtor are unfortunately slim, in my view. She'll be competing with folks in her region who possess a far more comprehensive knowledge of houses and the housing market there.

"I believe there is still a future out there waiting for me that represents itself in a pair of beautiful, dark eyes that will give me the hope for a new beginning and free me from my loneliness."

Yes, I believe an intelligent, romantic soul like you has a bright future ahead. You simply need to ride out this current sterile period in your life, that could go on for longer that you hope for. But eventually, change will come. Change for the better. Please keep yourself busy. Please keep planning and working towards realistic and achievable goals in your life. Most important of all, please don't stop dreaming.

All of us here are on your side. With the cumulative power of all our good wishes towards you, how can your future be anything but happy and fulfilled? But give it time, Imi. Don't become impatient. You're destined to succeed - and succeed well. Blessing to you, Imi. (handshake)

#2014-09-12 20:33:06 by zqy2014 @zqy2014

Imi, you are more aware on what have happened and going on with you, this is a good beginning on your next experience and I am sure it will guide you find the right person for you. All your experience and situation is not strange and special for all serious members here. We have the very similar or close experience as you and thus you are not alone here. It says:100 times fall,stand up 101 times.All failure & hardship is gifts given by god which will help us to get to know more about ourselves and others.

There are both positive and negative energy magnet around us and the thus please open your eyes to choose those positive ones to be be with.One big negative magnet could be fatal for us and absorb all positive energy we have inside so that we will feel very depression, frustration, confusion and exhausted after being with it.Be awake of these type persons.

There is some person who intends to show you their sincerity but they have been wandering on what they are wanting there.When you give chance to them, they show less response and act passively. I think we should keep away from this kind of person to avoid time wasting and bad mood only if you want to play game with them.

I hope you could step out the emotional troughs and gain energy soon for normal life. As you said, you are a real man and you still can live well even if there is no woman in your life...If you can't live well by yourself, you can't expect built a happy and harmony family with your longed woman in the future either.

#2014-09-12 21:35:03 by lansemengxiang @lansemengxiang

我读了你所以的文章。被你和百合的故事感动着,你是个重情义的男人,你的理解和包容证明你有一颗博爱的心,这样的好男人一定可以找到真正的幸福。

#2014-09-12 23:21:43 by Jennifercc42 @Jennifercc42

不知道要说什么,只是心里酸酸的...
希望LMI一切都好!

#2014-09-13 00:24:45 by anonymous11772 @anonymous11772

HI Imi, thanks for this episode! You must have 100's of chinese women here after you now, I know the woman I am involved with called me "inferior" and "I was not a great man like Imi" needless to say that hurt and it has been hard to forgive her. So you have had a profound affect on the woman here.

Chinese women can be very sexually aggressive in just a short time of knowing a person...this is a fact not a misnomer.

Be careful of women from Nanning, they can be tricky and sly.......just like your piano playing contact...

The only comment I have about Lily is she is not a good human being and is a predator.....

good luck hope you find an "honest" loving woman here....

#2014-09-13 02:05:48 by Belle77 @Belle77

Imi, I really enjoys reading your story, thank you
You will find someone who really loves you soon, good luck to you!

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