“Listening to YEW STUDY teachers’ comments, just like drinking Nascafe coffee, the taste is wonderful!”.
Last week, I saw the words on a boy’s QQ. It makes me smile.He is a young boy. Today is his 17th birthday. Today is Holidays,too. But he asked me to have 2hours class for him every day. I agreed. So I stopped practising Tai-chi this morning and went to my classroom at 8:00 on time. We learned Classical Chinese this morning. When we finished the lesson, the time was 10:30. Then he asked me a question, “Missi, what do you think about life?” …… after thinking for a while, I said, “now, my life is Tai-chi and Coffee.” He smiled,but no more words.
I met him two weeks ago. Exactly, his mother began to try to contact me on phone last December. But I was too busy to meet them in person. And he didn’t want to meet me until I called him by myself. When I tried to call his number, he was at home and listening to music and drawing. He agreed to meet me after I talked with him for about five minutes on phone. After half an hour, he came to my office, with a cold face. More than two hours talking, his words and feelings changed … from the cold,apathy, detest the world and its ways of expression …… changed into surprised, respect,and curious.
The next day,he came with a big school bag.
Then he told me his stories, about his family,his schools. His parents thought he has serious problem but they don’t know what it is, they tried to consult many people, and sent him to the hospital,the doctor said he got Autism, but he refused to take any advice or take medicine.He told me he tried to suicide since last year.There is a clear mark on his right arm. I was not surprised to hear that. Last month,a 16-year-old boy jumped down from 31st floor of a tall building,the head and the body saperated.His clssmates talked about it. He knew it.I knew it. I asked him,how does he feel about the thing? He said, maybe he felt he was flying while he was jumping down… “Flying???” the other boys heard and opened their eyes widely ......
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How can a young boy confused for the world like that???
I will try to know it day by day.This week he told me his school bag is heavier than anytime before, about 35kilos. hahaha… I laughed.
Now come back to my world. Looking around my room,flowers are still there,a laptop,a printer,and a sword. It seems much cleaner and more tidy. Tai-chi and coffee make my life here now. I thought I would enjoy Tai-chi when I was about 50s or 60s. I will be 41 next month, It seems I am getting old too early, hehehe ……
Maybe it has decided my “fate”since twenty-three years ago,just when I began to see Tai-chi in my university. I became interested in it when I just saw it.I learned so hard that my PE teacher gave me his lovely sword.It is a really good sword,made of stainless steel, very heavy and easy to feel its power. My friends felt envy for it. I miss my dear teacher.If he is still alive, he should be more than 91years old. I am so sorry I haven’t contacted him for many years. His words jumped out to my eyes now …… “Tai-chi is killing with kindness,with static brake.” I nearly forgot it all in the last twenty years.
Now I pick it up again.
Every morning,from 7:00 to 8:30,it is my Tai-chi time.With guzheng music,I try to feel it ……
“Why do you like coffee?”, A friend asked me. “You are so Petty Bourgeoisie!” I don’t know what is Petty Bourgeoisie, I just like coffee, like sitting on the rocking chair and feeling the taste …… of course, I have been enjoying nice food with my family and friends,the nice soup,nice dishes,nice snacks…...
Maybe,
When the boys and girls ask me again, what is life? I should tell them, life has different tastes in different ages, now my life is the taste of Tai-chi and Coffee.
太极和咖啡
“聆听悠然老师的讲评，就像喝了雀巢咖啡，味道好极了！”
上周，偶然在QQ上看到一个男孩子的留言，让我忍不住微笑。
他，一位年轻的男孩。今天是他17岁的生日,今天还是假日。但是，他请求我每天给他上两个小时的课程。我答应了。因此，我今天没有练太极，八点按时到教室。今早，我们学文言文。课完成时已经是十点半。然后，他问了一个问题，“MISSI, 你觉得生活怎样？...... 思考了一会儿，我说， “现在，我的生活是太极和咖啡。” 他微微笑了一笑，没有说什么。
我是两个星期前认识他的。确切地说，从去年十二月，他的母亲一直电话在联系我，但是，我太忙没能亲自和他们见面。直到我自己打电话给他，他才愿意跟我见面。当我打电话给他时，他正在家里听音乐画画。大约五分钟的电话，他答应和我见面。大约又过了半小时，他来到我的办公室，带着一副冷酷的脸。两个多小时的谈话，他的言辞和感觉在变化...... 由刚来时的冷漠、尖刻、愤世嫉俗，到惊讶、尊重、好奇...... 第二天，他来了，背着一个大书包。
他给我讲他的故事，他的家人，学校。他的父母认为他有严重的问题，但是，他们又不知道是什么，他们咨询了很多人，把他送到医院，医生说他有严重的自闭症，但是，他拒绝医生的建议，也不吃药。他告诉我，去年12月份，他想过自杀，右手上还有刀痕。听到他这么说，我没有感到惊讶。上个月，一个16岁的男孩从一栋高楼的31层跳下来，脑袋和身子分家。他的同学们在谈论此事，他知道，我也知道。我问他，你对那件事有什么感受？他说，“也许，当他跳下的那一刻，他感觉飞一样吧...... “感觉在飞？？？” 其他男孩听到他这么说都睁大了眼睛。
一个年轻男孩怎么对世界感觉如此迷惑？？？
我要一天一天地去认识。这一周，他告诉我他的书包比任何时候都重了，有70多斤。哈哈...... 我笑了。
回到我的世界。看看我的房间，花还在那，一个笔记本、一个打印机、一把剑，看起来干净整齐多了。我还以为我会到50多或60多岁了才会感受太极。下个月，我才41岁。看来，我老得太快了......
也许，二十三年前，当我第一次看到太极的那一刻，已经决定了我的“命运”。我一看见它就喜欢上了。我学得如此认真，以致我的体育老师把他可爱的剑送给了我。这确实是一把好剑，不锈钢的，很沉，很有力量。我的朋友都很嫉妒我。我想念我的老师。如果他还健在，应该有九十多岁了。我感觉很遗憾这么多年没有联系他。现在，他的话跳到我的眼前，“太极，就是，以柔克刚，以静制动....... ”二十多年了，我差不多忘完了。
现在，我重新把它捡起来。
每天早上，七点到八点半，是我的太极时间。伴着古筝曲，我感受着......
“为什么你喜欢咖啡？好小资！”一个朋友说我。我不知道什么是小资，我只是喜欢咖啡，喜欢坐着摇椅，感受着那份味道...... 当然，我一直都喜欢和朋友家人享受美食，那美味的汤、菜肴、点心......
也许，
下次，孩子们问我，什么是生活？我会告诉他们，不同年龄段，生活有不同的味道，现在，我的生活就是太极和咖啡的味道。
Tai-chi,it is a special lesson from "God", if there is "God" in the world.
Tea or coffe? It took me some time to make the choice.
Tea, is my family traditional drink, it is one important part of our life.
My favourite is Longjing green tea.
Coffee, is my interest for many years.I don't know so much about it.
Some years ago, I got some white coffee from Malaysia, it was sweet.
Now, I prefer black coffee.
It is bitter, astringent, sweet, fragrant ... ...